After thoughts

oh man.. you have no idea how tiring blogging all that in one shot can be! (for those who have no clue what I am talking about, I am referring to my blog entries below for my China trip updates!) hehehe.. although most of them are just photos, but the rearranging of the photos can be a pain you know!!! and i was too tired to adjust the spacings between the pictures and all.. hehehe...so please forgive my messiness! :p

aniwae... i thought i'd like to express some of my thoughts after my extraordinary trip to china and hongkong.

I am so glaaad that I am alive! =D

When we got back from the trip and after re-telling our experiences a few thousand times, we realised that we were so lucky to be at the right place at the right time. Even though we were in China and experienced a little "hardship" after the earthquake aftermath, (cant really call that hardship.. but cant find a milder word than that at the moment), we didnt actually feel the tremor at all.

The earthquake was at 2 pm that day and our flight was scheduled at 4 pm the very same day.

If we had taken an earlier flight, we would definitely be stuck at Chengdu when the earthquake occurs.
If we were a day late, we would have still be in JiuZhaiGou, and it was not exactly safe to be in such a mountainous area during an earthquake.

We were very lucky to be where we were.

I dont know.... even though I didnt feel any tremors and didnt witness any of the tragedies that you see in the newspaper.... just the fact that I was so near it, makes me realise once again, how short life is.

This whole incident made me rethink about my life, my career, my personal well being, and especially my relationships with my family and friends.

I have been unhappy for a while now... and it is affecting my relationship with my family. I would like to change all that and be happy once again! I feel like... all these time that I was unhappy, I was spreading black clouds to other people through my actions or inactions. (hahaha was trying to be philosophical there :p) but talking about black clouds....I really felt like there are black clouds hovering around my head the whole time I was unhappy. and after thinking things through and making some huge decisions to change my life a little, I felt like this black clouds are finally thinning and I can see things clearly now.

Knowing myself, I had to resort to something drastic to get my act up together! To stop feeling sorry for myself and not do anything about it! I waaant to changeee my lifeeeee... i want to be like PJ ...!! to feel happy for no reason!!! (hehehe)

sigh.. i'm never good at expressing my inner feelings in my blog. my blog is suppose to be all funny and strictly photos. no emotions. hehhehe.... well now you know why......cos my english is shit! hehehehe

ahh... but one good news for me is....

...... i have been sleeping like a baby every single nite after the stupid black clouds are gone.





no more sleepless nites for fel! :)