Sunday, June 15, 2008

After thoughts

oh man.. you have no idea how tiring blogging all that in one shot can be! (for those who have no clue what I am talking about, I am referring to my blog entries below for my China trip updates!) hehehe.. although most of them are just photos, but the rearranging of the photos can be a pain you know!!! and i was too tired to adjust the spacings between the pictures and all.. hehehe...so please forgive my messiness! :p

aniwae... i thought i'd like to express some of my thoughts after my extraordinary trip to china and hongkong.

I am so glaaad that I am alive! =D

When we got back from the trip and after re-telling our experiences a few thousand times, we realised that we were so lucky to be at the right place at the right time. Even though we were in China and experienced a little "hardship" after the earthquake aftermath, (cant really call that hardship.. but cant find a milder word than that at the moment), we didnt actually feel the tremor at all.

The earthquake was at 2 pm that day and our flight was scheduled at 4 pm the very same day.

If we had taken an earlier flight, we would definitely be stuck at Chengdu when the earthquake occurs.
If we were a day late, we would have still be in JiuZhaiGou, and it was not exactly safe to be in such a mountainous area during an earthquake.

We were very lucky to be where we were.

I dont know.... even though I didnt feel any tremors and didnt witness any of the tragedies that you see in the newspaper.... just the fact that I was so near it, makes me realise once again, how short life is.

This whole incident made me rethink about my life, my career, my personal well being, and especially my relationships with my family and friends.

I have been unhappy for a while now... and it is affecting my relationship with my family. I would like to change all that and be happy once again! I feel like... all these time that I was unhappy, I was spreading black clouds to other people through my actions or inactions. (hahaha was trying to be philosophical there :p) but talking about black clouds....I really felt like there are black clouds hovering around my head the whole time I was unhappy. and after thinking things through and making some huge decisions to change my life a little, I felt like this black clouds are finally thinning and I can see things clearly now.

Knowing myself, I had to resort to something drastic to get my act up together! To stop feeling sorry for myself and not do anything about it! I waaant to changeee my lifeeeee... i want to be like PJ ...!! to feel happy for no reason!!! (hehehe)

sigh.. i'm never good at expressing my inner feelings in my blog. my blog is suppose to be all funny and strictly photos. no emotions. hehhehe.... well now you know why......cos my english is shit! hehehehe

ahh... but one good news for me is....

...... i have been sleeping like a baby every single nite after the stupid black clouds are gone.





no more sleepless nites for fel! :)

26 comments:

Anonymous said...

if u turn like pj, then i'll have 2 people telling me to 'tink positive'... oh... no.

waht dark clouds man.... e-lab-o-rate pa-lease.

fe li ci a said...

hahaha...dudee! it's good to have positive people around you man!! it's a good thing! you dun want to keep negative people around you riteeee....

dunnoe how to elaborate..

PJ said...

black clouds?? explain explain?

ya lah stay positive man.

tell you guys something amazing that happened to me.
i always see this advert about going to Lourdes, France. they always organise pilgrims there every year around june/july time.

but i could never go round that time and i thought to myself how i wish i could go. i think i keep thinking and thinking and thinking...
then suddenly my bro said he is coming in sept and we are going to Lourdes!!!

think positive and good things will happen lah!!!!

POSITIVE!!!! feel the happiness within you....

;-)

PJ said...

so if you wanna go to HK ef, keep thinking about it and before you know it you will be there. ;-)

i wanna go to HK toooooo....

Anonymous said...

well.. going to hk is not a problem at all so I don't need to think positive about that. It can happen if only i would get my ass out of the house.. which i will.. probably... maybe.

pilgrims ? Lourdes? what will you be doing there?

fe li ci a said...

haahaha... i agree with pj! :p
and wat the heck ef.. get out of the housee laaaa haahahha

PJ said...

wat to do at Lourdes? pray and relaks lah.

get out of the house la... ;-p

Anonymous said...

i am .. out of the house. Maybe just not when i'm home. It's so hard to do things there. It's like going back to being 15 and asking permissions for everything.

You still haven't told us about the dark clouds and how/why they're moving away. still waiting for that.

Life is so great right now. I'm smiling for no reason. what to do.. how to make it stop..

PJ said...

are
you
in
love???

smiling for no reason seems like the symptom for that.

x

Anonymous said...

i'm just 'feeling the happiness within [me]'..

PJ said...

555555555 im so happy for you ef..

fe li ci a said...

i only sense sarcasm from her leh pj.... hahahah..

PJ said...

just spoke to her on the phone.
she is very happy.
like on top of the world happy!!

im not being sarcastic.

she is really really happy.

i thought i was happy lately but i wish i can be as happy as her.

lol.

Anonymous said...

so that's why you called me.. heui heui heui....

fel knows me.. i just don't use those words... it's cheeeeeeese.

also fel, how can u tell pj about ur dark clouds and not me.? and she said i should ask you myself which I did, but you didn't reply so i'm not gonna ask again.. but then pj knows... and now i wanna know. spill it.

tell me yours and i'll tell u mine. 5555555555555555555

fe li ci a said...

hahahaha...

i just briefly told you in facebook. okok i'd better go there again and explain somemore.

ok so now you spill.

Anonymous said...

pj hyped your clouds a notch too high !

i'll tell you on facebook. pj can wait until she has sth juicy juicy to tell me.

PJ said...

i knew you didn't tell me everything yest. lol.
i called cos i miss you lah.
haven't seen you for ages.
we must meet up soon when you are not busy lah.

i got something juicy but im not telling you now. ;-p
maybe i will tell fel.lol.

miss u fel.
i will 'zhi chi ni' whatever you do man. im sure u did the right thing.

Xxx

fe li ci a said...

ahahaha.. you mean you didnt tell pj ef!! how could youuu!!

yea yea.. pj pj tell me tell me juicy juicy!! hahahaaha...

both ways. i win. hehe.

and thanx pj...!! wo ye hui zhi chi ni de! hahahhah

PJ said...

i will ask her this sat!

or...

u can tell me fel.

lol.

Natra said...

i'll tell you this sat. no prob. trade it for a good lunch. :D

PJ said...

ok its a deal. lunch on me.
u can treat me dinner and i tell you something juicy.
lol.

eh you can wake up for lunch ar?
you better k...

hey, wat we gonna do after lunch?

Anonymous said...

it's hard to have dinner when you'll be leaving at 6 u know. !

Anonymous said...

fel fel...

when's your next blog??

fe li ci a said...

wow... i love that people are WAITING for me to blog...makes me wanna do exciting things so that i can blog.

woahahahahaha.....

Daffy said...

FELICIA SANTOSO! i'm very happy you can sleep. FINALLY.

fe li ci a said...

hahaha... i dunnoe how long good times will last though..... hehehee